So….it’s time to get personal.
First off, let me provide you with some background of
who I am. I am a book lover. I love to read – a lot. I am
also a book hoarder collector. My
love for reading started early in my life with the introduction to The Little House on the Prairie
series. This series opened up a whole
new world to me where I could escape life for a bit, visualizing the story
unfolding before my eyes. After reading
that series, I was hooked for life. I
also suffer from social anxiety, general anxiety, depression, and low self-esteem
issues. I won’t go to deep into this as
I don’t want to bore you, but these issues come into play later on which will
be discussed in a bit.
When I started this blog, I wanted share my thoughts on
the books I read, and then discovered there was a way to help promote up and
coming authors. At first, this was so
much fun and I had the opportunity to discover new books and new favorite
authors. I went into this with everything
that I had and was having a great time doing it. Sharing my thoughts on the books that I read
was fun and exciting, but it also made my anxiety greater. You see, sometimes, when my depression takes
hold, I have a hard time focusing on the books I was reading, then when it came
time to write up my reviews, I would forget everything that I read, which in
turn ramped up my anxiety level. Needless
to say, this presents a problem when I am trying to write an amazing review that
will draw readers in and want to read the book.
As my blog progressed, I found that the number of
review requests became too much to keep up with. I have a full-time job and a family, so I was
finding that I had to decline requests and eventually not taking requests at
all. I have a mountain of books that I
have purchased that I haven’t even read because of time that is lost due to this blog. After a while, this blogging and reviewing
just wasn’t fun anymore. I began to
resent everything that I had originally started out to do, even dreading
reading.
Which brings me to the point of this post…yes, there is
a point. I need to take a break from
this blog. I just need to step away and
reconnect with my love of books and reading – not having to analyze writing skills
and plot lines and post schedules. I
also need to focus on my family and my job. I regret this decision as I feel that I am
letting authors, publishers, and tour companies down, but at this point, I need
to do what I feel is right for me. I
have a few obligations that I have committed to that will still be posted, but from this point on
until I can get to a better place personally and mentally, any new posts will
be few and far between. I realize that I
am just a tiny fish in a huge ocean as far as the blogging world is concerned, and
it is quite likely that I will not be missed, but I feel as though some sort of
explanation of my hiatus needed to be provided.
I apologize in advance to anyone that I have let down,
but appreciate your understanding.
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