So….it’s time to get personal.
First off, let me provide you with some background of who I am. I am a book lover. I love to read – a lot. I am also a book
hoarder collector. My
love for reading started early in my life with the introduction to The Little House on the Prairie
series. This series opened up a whole
new world to me where I could escape life for a bit, visualizing the story
unfolding before my eyes. After reading
that series, I was hooked for life. I
also suffer from social anxiety, general anxiety, depression, and low self-esteem
issues. I won’t go to deep into this as
I don’t want to bore you, but these issues come into play later on which will
be discussed in a bit.
When I started this blog, I wanted share my thoughts on the books I read, and then discovered there was a way to help promote up and coming authors. At first, this was so much fun and I had the opportunity to discover new books and new favorite authors. I went into this with everything that I had and was having a great time doing it. Sharing my thoughts on the books that I read was fun and exciting, but it also made my anxiety greater. You see, sometimes, when my depression takes hold, I have a hard time focusing on the books I was reading, then when it came time to write up my reviews, I would forget everything that I read, which in turn ramped up my anxiety level. Needless to say, this presents a problem when I am trying to write an amazing review that will draw readers in and want to read the book.
As my blog progressed, I found that the number of review requests became too much to keep up with. I have a full-time job and a family, so I was finding that I had to decline requests and eventually not taking requests at all. I have a mountain of books that I have purchased that I haven’t even read because of time that is lost due to this blog. After a while, this blogging and reviewing just wasn’t fun anymore. I began to resent everything that I had originally started out to do, even dreading reading.
Which brings me to the point of this post…yes, there is a point. I need to take a break from this blog. I just need to step away and reconnect with my love of books and reading – not having to analyze writing skills and plot lines and post schedules. I also need to focus on my family and my job. I regret this decision as I feel that I am letting authors, publishers, and tour companies down, but at this point, I need to do what I feel is right for me. I have a few obligations that I have committed to that will still be posted, but from this point on until I can get to a better place personally and mentally, any new posts will be few and far between. I realize that I am just a tiny fish in a huge ocean as far as the blogging world is concerned, and it is quite likely that I will not be missed, but I feel as though some sort of explanation of my hiatus needed to be provided.
I apologize in advance to anyone that I have let down, but appreciate your understanding.