The Victor's Heritage
(The Jonah Trilogy Book 2)
by Anthony Caplan
Genre: Dystopian, SciFi, Fantasy
Corrag is a Democravian teenager, smart, funny and bold. Maybe too bold.
It is 2045. America has been shattered into two countries. Democravia
and the Republican Homeland. Peace between the two continental rivals is always
fragile.
An ill-fated escapade with her boyfriend launches Corrag on a journey of
revolutionary impact, driving her to exile in the Nenkaja from which there is
no escape. Will she ever find a place for herself in a society dominated by the
Augment?
The Victor's Heritage, Book Two of the Jonah Trilogy, is a
science-fiction thriller, a roller coaster of a book.
**Meant to be read as a standalone!**
Chapter One --The
Augment
Corrag smiled at the idea of Gurgie in
her bedroom on Durkiev Drive across town and the shock of recognition when she
realized her friend had signed off on MandolinMonkey rather than go in for the
remnant. So characteristic of a truly dynamic soul, Gurgie would say, to quit
nonchalantly on the verge. But for Corrag the reality was less comforting. She
had ten minutes before her parents called for dinner. It was a more complex
fear coming over her -- of facing Ricky and Alana, the stalwarts of St.
Michael's Close, the exclusive, tree-lined enclave of Edmundstown where she had
grown and lived her entire sixteen years. Her parents, the Drs. Lyons as they
were titled in the annual consensus, had implied that this talk would be
“important to her future.” Whatever that could mean. Something about the boring
infinitude of possibilities always just around the corner. Like signing off on
the game rather than face the interior of the obelisk, it was easier for Corrag
to be present and accounted for -- ride the tide of her parent’s displeasure --
then to make a stand by remaining in her bedroom, the private space she
continued to carve out of the increasingly imperiled Democravian Federation
life she was about to leave behind.
She
observed numbly as the icon came up on the nanowall, the family crest with the
towering crane and the stylized image of the transgalactic, so twenty-thirties,
and wished again she’d had other siblings, that Ricky and Alana had been more
compelled by the recommendations of the Commission on Demography and less
concerned with their augmented careers. But so be it. There were also
advantages to being the basket in which were placed all the eggs of the Lyons
family name. if only the crest design were more compelling. She hit the kill
button before the music, theme of HG Wells acclaimed classic The Shape of
Things to Come which she had performed during her sixth grade drama season in a
stellar role as Hillary Perron, the Council leader responsible for the
withering away of the former power of the state of California, the sclerotic,
corrupt vestiges of what had once been democratic governance, could end. Now it
just reminded her of her parent’s unfulfilled expectations for her development
as a young woman about to assume the mantle of augmentation.
She
descended the stairs covered in royal blue carpeting and sat at the dining room
table of molybdenum, while her father, white beard trimmed neatly and his
cardigan in the colors of the University of the Upper West, maroon with cream
pockets, beamed at her. Her mother, Alana, continued to talk in that subtle,
alluring monotone with hints of New Albion that had entranced many faculty
parties on the shores of Mono Lake.
“And I’ve always maintained that tennis
induces a better oxygen wash of the skin than yoga, Ricky. Well. Here she is.
Corrag? Where is your file?” asked Alana.
“Oh my God. Can I get my food before
the interrogation?”
“Of course you can. Don’t be silly,”
said her father, trying hard to keep the sound of despair out of his voice.
Alana sighed. Corrag hated hurting their feelings, but there was nothing else
to be done. This would have to be endured. Not even Alana was going to come out
of this smelling of roses. There was probably a word in another language for
the moment when a young woman declared her independence from her family without
a pre-approved plan in place. But Corrag felt herself destined for a new form
of singular existence that depended on taking this risk.
“Have you taken a stab at the essay
yet? When is it due?" asked her father, once she had served herself from
the tray offered by the housebot of the lasagna and truffles.
“In two days,” said Alana. “It’s
getting late.”
“I’m having thoughts about it,” said
Corrag. “I’m not sure.”
“Not sure. Thoughts. That’s Corrag for
you,” said Alana. “What is sure for you? Nothing is ever sure in your world.
You are the classic case of choice overload. We never should have let her have
a PlayCube of her own.”
“Let her speak,” said Ricky.
They waited breathlessly, the two
anxious parents, while Corrag forked some lasagna and chewed without looking at
them.
“Didn’t you always tell me to follow my
desires, Dad? Well, that’s what I’m trying to decipher. I don’t really know
what my desires are. I don’t know if it’s what I really want. That’s my
problem. I want to know. I can’t just plunge ahead into fine-tuning until I do.
It wouldn’t be right for me.”
“Right for me.” Alana repeated. She
dropped her fork. It clattered on her plate. Ricky grabbed his head helplessly
with both hands. The bot, sensing some urgency, circled the table speedily. Corrag
waved it away with her hand and looked at it with a hard stare that sent it
back into the kitchen through the energy panel.
“This uncertainty of yours is in total
defiance of your education and privilege,” said Alana.
“I know,” said Corrag. “But it’s what I
want. Until we reach augmentation, we can choose what we want, right?”
“Within reason, Corrag. The parents
still have the final say,” said Alana darkly.
“It’s unbelievable, Corrag,” said her
father. “There are no more exemptions.
Look at the Calder boy. He wanted to take a year and read the books in his
grandfather’s library because he said he “valued the experience” of holding the
words in his head instead of instant upload. He tried to argue in the consensus
- you don’t remember, do you? - that the year of reading was worthwhile. But
there were no more exemptions. Do you understand? He was effectively exiled.
The only thing left to him was the HumInt Corps. Is that what you want? Hundred
mile marches in the swamps where not even the bots can go? Certain premature
death? No augmentation means no physical corrections.”
“That’s not true. There are other
things,” said Corrag, the color rising in her face.
“Like what?” asked Alana.
“I don’t
know.”
“Uugh,” grimaced Alana, her face
wrinkling like a prune despite the botulin implants.
“Look,” said Ricky. Corrag could see
the glint in his eye that told her he was probably in the cloud. “It’s a common
condition of human childhood to seek individuation. We try to condition it
away, but the vestiges of the trait are stronger in some and may require
remedial conditioning. Or else you can choose the Vocag. There are some
interesting possibilities. If you like manual work.”
“Okay,” said Corrag. She’d heard it all
before, The path of the conversation had taken a familiar tack that apparently
was not remembered by her father. But Alana would not have it.
“Do you know what that is? It’s not
exactly gravy, is it. Give them run of the greenhouses. How ... utterly tacky.”
said Alana.
“So? Somebody has to grow the food. I
thought we were all in this together. Hail the Federation. Smile all the
while."
“Corrag,” said Alana sharply.
“What?”
“Look,” said Ricky. “I can accept that
you need time. You’ve always been ... different."
"What are you talking about, Dad? I'm
just like you. Have you forgotten? You've told me about refusing to play
football. How your dad took it hard. How you had to find your own way."
"I know. You're ... different.
Yes, like I was once. That’s why we love you. We’ll continue to support you in
your choices no matter what.”
“But she doesn’t know what she wants.”
“Give her a year. What if we send her
to New Albion to stay with Geoff and Joan. She can work with them, I don't
know, the cows and the vegetable garden and get a real taste of life in the
Republic. How does that sound, Corrag? It’s a world away from here. You haven’t
seen your cousins since you were oh, two years old.”
“I don’t remember.”
“I agree,” said Alana, with the glint
in her eye. “At first I thought it was a bad idea. After all, the Republic’s
ideas on education and adulthood are very different than ours. I just don’t
know how it will sit with the Council.”
“I’ll run it by Mitchell Culpepper.
There is the youth emissary program. It’s usually staffed by graduates of fine-tuning,
but they may make an exception for me."
“And I’ll get in touch with Joan.
There’s the risk of course …”
“Of
course. But … paradoxically there are
less opportunities for young people in the Repho. The reliance on market forces
will always prove inefficient as a mechanism to harness the singularity.”
“Do call
Mitchell.”
“I will
dear. Tonight.”
Ricky and
Alana finished their dinner with occasional glances Corrag’s way. The matter
was closed as far as they were concerned. Corrag watched her parents, wondering
at their ability to turn on a dime conversationally once all the options had
been thoroughly considered. For her, though, a year abroad loomed mysterious
and menacing. She hadn’t heard them talk about the New Albion family in
forever, and why that would be the best option for her was not clear. Corrag
had, in the back of her mind, figured they would find a way to get her private
tutors to prepare for augmentation, with some kind of mental health
dispensation. Sure it would have channeled her into the arts, but that was
where she felt at home, without the responsibility for determining the way
forward for the entire civilization. Just entertain us, that was the mandate
for the ArtSmile corps coming out of the Federation system. Most of their recent
mindscapes and challenges were pretty bland. The occasional bootleg memes from
Sandelsky, the main branding of the Republic that teenaged hackers sometimes
spread around the play spheres, far outstripped Democravian productions in
technical flair; and they just seemed deeper, somehow more important.
She
advanced around the dark corner. The street was empty except for a parked
vintage Bundeswehr quadcopter on the right. She passed it and lifted her head.
In her hand she hefted the laser pistol and aimed it at the bonfire about three
blocks away. The Mandolin headquarters was a square, black obelisk, modelled on
a classic Anish Kapoor sculpture. The fire raged around its doors and she had
to shoot her way through a crowd of ripper monkeys. They were easy. They always
aimed right for your head and all you had to do was duck several inches and
fire back at the same time in their general vicinity. The game makers had been
recently faulted at a consensus for setting the adversarial level purposefully
down market in order to secure continued funding. For Corrag, the subtext was clear. Life was a
popularity contest. No matter how efficiently the council liked to think it was
going you couldn’t do away with the basic human flaws of wanting, desiring,
seeking what was out there. Greater RAM speeds and advanced neural networks had
never gotten to grips with the pattern-making propensity of the human brain and
the magnetic allure of pleasure which threw up the energy-matter continuum all
around. MandolinMonkey did a good job of smoothing the jolts of scenic
transition and stimulating the pituitary with each new level attained. Still,
she found herself impatiently bypassing the obvious level trap with a joystick
function and flying down the hallways unmindful of lesser adventures and
parallel opportunities. Above and behind her avatar there sprung two Greckels,
stoat-like creatures capable of quick extensions and sharp tears at limbs and
throats. They were Gurgie and Mathew.
“Come
with us,” said a high-pitched voice.
She had
five seconds. She knew she should check the table for power surges at least,
but she felt compelled to follow. If they were leading her astray, so be it.
She would find a way to dodge an ill end, as the game makers called it. Her
avatar, an Elfin, had the power over water and fire and so was a logical
complement to the Greckels’ slippery land capabilities. What the game lacked
was dimensionality of power, the ability to shape shift and entertain various
outcomes at the same time. But for now it would do. In the end, win or lose,
the only thing that mattered was displaying the innovative spirit that the
Founders wanted in the future leader corps. Once you had that hacked,
everything else was an easy trick. The person that had taught her the shortcuts
that had helped her to climb the ranks Federation wide was Ben Calder. Where was he now? Was he still alive? Or had
the stint in the Humint Corps in the Basin wars possibly killed him, as her
father had suggested? A cold stab of fear hit Corrag at the thought of Ben
dead.
They were
in the obelisk. Corrag wondered how they had gotten in. Down the hall the two
Greckels paused and stood on their hindfeet at a nanowall display. There in a
neon gothic font flashed the message: Be a Vence with us at the Spring
Fest. The Vences were a rebel punk band from
the twenties, one of Gurgie’s favorites. She had their songs posted all over
the soundscape in school. The Vences had painted their faces in ghoulish
camouflage colors and had flouted the ideals of physical perfection and the
singularity long enough to gain themselves a diehard following. Gurgie’s
parents had been fans and so had Ricky, in his youth. But he hated their music
now and cringed whenever Gurgie came over for a visit trailing “Blast Me Down
Andromeda” out of her loose earpiece.
“Very
smooth, Gurgie,” said Corrag, pressing the joystick dialogue button beneath the
thumb hold. The Elfin jumped and clapped, signifying acceptance of a strange,
land-based phenomenon. Corrag smiled at the clever algorithm that had allowed
her avatar to anticipate her feelings. Then the Greckels faded into the ether
and she was alone. A blank look on the Elfin’s severe, drawn face was
intriguing, as if she were pondering the significance of life. Corrag saved and
hit the power off with her index finger, before any other competitors could
appear to threaten her, and lay down on her bed. Sometimes the Elfin almost
seemed to come alive and read her mind. That was the most frustrating thing,
the apparent gap between her capabilities and actual human feelings. There were
some who believed that bots had already made the transition, but Corrag was not
one of them. For a while she had believed, and her parents and teachers still
fostered the foundational concept, that humans and bots would soon be equals in
thought and feeling. But for Corrag the issue was now moot. In the last year,
she would guess, she had come down thoroughly on the side that this equality
was neither necessary nor desirable. Not that she dared to voice the opinion.
It would place her beyond the sphere of Democravian influence and deem her
“inconvenient” for continued leadership training. Because the ideal of the
Democravian way ever since the initial founding of the institutional state in
2022 was to raise a cadre of youth who would merge with the bots in order to
undergo the transgalactic mission -- colonize the most desirable Earth-like
habitable planets, 23 of them, that had been so far identified as potential
targets in the Milky Way. And in the intervening two decades since the first
councils and consensus meetings, the notion of youth had of course expanded so
that almost all citizens with the appropriate formation could potentially
qualify for merger. It was this very accessibility to the highest ideals of the
state that gave Democravia its missionary fervor, its self-styled
exceptionalism, and made it all the harder for Corrag to accept that she was
swimming against the stream. Though she knew, in the darkness, under the
sheets, about to fall asleep in the silence of the Edmundstown night, that she
was not really alone.
Edmundstown
Senior School was divided into two floors, the Upper Deck and the Lower Hall.
On the Upper Deck, Corrag took most of her classes except gym. Miss Schilling
taught the humanities block for advanced seniors. They were touching on the literature of the
transgressives, in the context of the decline of the West and the rise of the
plural. Miss Schilling was a bright-eyed thirty-year old. Mathew and Gurgie sat
in the front row and laughed at her references to James Joyce as “that old man
in the trench coat hiding in the sand dunes.” Corrag sat in the back row
between Julian Alvarenga and Prualyse Kopeckwitz. She wondered what was that
funny about Joyce. Was it his notion of the circularity of time, so maligned
and disparaged? Miss Schilling, with her bright smile and sharp hairstyle,
looked at her as if reading her thoughts.
“And of
course you have had the night to reflect on the links to our core curriculum
factor nine, and that is what? Corrag?”
“Factor
nine?”
It had
been flashing on the wall at the beginning of the class along with a soundscape
by SwiftBoat.
“Oh yes.
The need to transcend individuation and internalize utility.” said Corrag.
“And how
does our study of Joyce tie in?”
“Well, I
don’t quite know. I mean, yes, there were a lot of voices, but isn’t it
admirable for a man to try and capture the essence of his reality like that?”
“But the
end result is a cacophony. A cacophony that at best yields a meager portrait of
one individual’s disillusion and bitterness. Democravian artists have dwarfed
the possibilities of the transgressives. To end, Corrag, with Molly Bloom
reminiscing on the romantic past, I’m sure you’ll agree. Such a shoddy
counterfeit of reality. When we compare that to the works of the Ontavians,
collaborations that we will look at next week that mix the perspectives of
symmetry and harmonics, it will all be clear,” said Miss Schilling. Gurgie
turned around and gave a hard stare.
“But it’s
about the common people struggling with the weight of history. Isn’t that a
part of what Democravia represents?”
“It’s not
good enough, Corrag. Not good enough. It disparages women.”
“But so
does The Great Gatsby Look at Daisy. Irresponsible and careless and
destructive.”
“Yes, but
Fitzgerald identified the malaise. the lack of tether in the primitive,
unwashed American soul. The need for correction. The inevitability of
self-destruction. That is a seminal work. if only Fitzgerald had correctly
identified Zelda his wife as a collaborator in his life work. The myth of the
heroic male was still too strong. There were too many economic factors at work
in its perpetuation. You’ve seen that in your history block. I want you to
reference the SwiftBoat parody of masculine artistry. Nietzsche and Me. You’ll
find it in Unit 28, I believe in the Library archives for this course. In your
reflective piece tonight remember to present in a visually appealing manner and
to comment on the works of at least three of your fellow students. That’s all
for this morning, students. Smile all the while.”
Julian
Alvarenga smiled wanly at her.
“Nice
try, Corrag. Going for the gusto, aren’t you?”
“What is
that, Julian? An obscure reference to 20th century advertising? Let me guess.
Cigarettes.”
“Close.
Try beer.”
“Try beer.
Funny. Very transgressive of you.”
Julian
was the first of his siblings to attend the Upper Deck. They were a family of
former farm workers, the dark-skinned people of the Valley, mostly displaced,
like the majority of work sectors, by the first generation of semi-autonomous
bots. He had a permeable quality, as if life was just passing through him that
reminded Corrag of a sieve. She looked him in the eye to test her theory. He
looked her right back and smiled. This was strange.
“Corrag?
Can I see you a minute?”
Miss
Schilling lifted her head at her desk. Corrag nudged past Gurgie.
“I’ll
wait for you," said Gurgie.
“By the O
tank.”
“Fine.”
Miss
Schilling looked tired. She patted her hair behind her ear and cocked her head
at Corrag, who suddenly felt under siege, as if something had popped inside her
skull.
“How is
that essay coming?” asked Miss Schilling.
“It’s
not.”
“I didn’t
think so. I’ve seen this before, you know. I want to help.”
Corrag
felt like crying.
“I’m
taking a year. My father’s going to clear it with Axion.”
“Looks
like poor Corrag is having a crisis.”
“You
don’t need to rub it in.”
“I’m a
little bit angry, frankly. I offered to help you months ago.” Miss Schilling
thrust her hands out on the desk, splayed fingers on the console flashing slogans
and cafeteria menus and student visuals.
“But I
don’t believe in it anymore, Miss Schilling.”
“Don’t
believe in what? Corrag, it’s a poor poet who cannot venerate a doomed
civilization. What you’re going through is perfectly natural. Your feelings of
nostalgia and ... and anger are the signs of a higher calling. I so much want
to recommend you for higher order augmentation. And it’s going to raise
questions about the entire program here if you don’t complete the application
process for Axion Fine-Tuning. You can’t do that to us, Corrag.”
Miss
Schilling was sitting straight up on the chair and suddenly looking at her with
that eagle-eyed augmented focus that made Corrag instinctively want to squirm.
She looked down and away. Again the easy path beckoned -- to follow along and
do what she was told and hope someday it would all be okay. That was the
subliminal message, the factor X of the hidden curriculum not just of the
Edmundstown Charter School but of the town itself. Perhaps even of Democravia.
“I’ll
try.”
More than
try. Put in the Corrag effort that we all know you’re capable of. Top shelf
stuff. Give it all you’ve got. Do it for us, for the Wildcats. For Edmundstown.
Make us proud.”
“Is that
all?”
Yes,
that’s all. Share with me, please. And Corrag?”
“Yes?”
“Smile.
All the while.”
Corrag
got out through the faulty energy panel that zapped her back with a slight zap.
The janitor, Mr. Breen, was already coming down the hall on the beat up old
Segway with his laser torch repair tool swaying dangerously on the curves
against his hip. At this time mid morning the energy grid constantly
experienced minor fluctuations as the wind either rose or fell and the water
desalination plants kicked in up and down the Kaiser aquifer, giving the bigger
power users in the area headaches such as energy panel misalignments and
nanowall absurdities. Mr. Breen smiled at Corrag as he would at a senior with
some insider knowledge of these sorts of problems. Gurgie leaned against the
wall and Mathew looked up and down the hall nervously at the river of
well-dressed and contented Upper Deck students in their paisley and Kubik
patterned neoprenes with the various interchangeable logos of self-satisfied
Democravian memes. There were few other teachers in the Upper Deck as most of the
classes conducted via upload and lecture needed only administrators to assist
with student work in the study hall blocks. Miss Schilling had only a few more
semesters of small class teaching before she would move on in the Axion system
to upload lectures in a regional class encompassing the Western and Middle
Southern districts.
At the O
tank, Corrag fastened the mask to her face while holding her standard issue
ExePad tablet in the other hand. The O had a sweet aftertaste. They added
something to it, some kind of anesthetic. That was the rumor anyways. And on
some days there was a caffeinated mix that heightened the fervor of students
about to embark on a school-wide mission, one of the collaborative,
experiential pieces. The last one, to Haiti, led by Mrs. Wilson, the head of
the PTA, had been a disaster. Seven students had caught new forms of the
pulmonary virus that had decimated the Caribbean and South America and had
needed long stays at the BethIsrael-XenKai Hospital in Matamoros.
“So
Corrag. Do you have anything to say?” asked Gurgie
“Yes, I
saw your visual. And yes, Of course I’ll go with you to the Spring Fest. What
did you think?”
“Well,
you have been acting very strangely lately,” said Mathew, eyeballing her with
mock augmented focus.
“I’ve had
a lot on my mind. I haven’t finished my application essay.”
“Why
not?” asked Gurgie. “You can’t be thinking about transferring to the Vocag?”
“I am.”
“Jesus,
Corrag. You need to come with us tonight.”
“Okay. I
said I would. But more importantly: How do we dress? We’re a team, right?
Forget the Vences. Everybody’s going to do that. I have an idea we go as Daisy
and Tom and Gatsby. I’ll be Gatsby. I have the perfect idea for a pants suit
that my mother used to wear. It’s in a box in the attic.”
“But I
thought we had discussed going as Joseph in The Assistant,” said Gurgie.
“No, I
was going to be Tobler the Inventor,” said Mathew.
“Oh,
that’s right,” said Gurgie, distracted by the sudden thinning of students as
the next class began. They walked together towards the cafe. Corrag wondered at
how easily Gurgie gave up on the Vences. The changes they all went through were
happening way too fast and Miss Schilling was having way too big an impact on
their social lives. Outside, a flock of small birds flew in a cloud by the
energy panels, distorting and magnifying so as to seem a shade, like a hand
drawing down upon the three of them as they walked along.
“The
thing is,” said Corrag, thinking aloud. “I like Daisy and Tom and Jay Gatz,
whereas I don’t like Joseph. He’s too pleasant ... and passive.”
“Exactly.
Just like Gatsby. Only the mask never slips,” said Gurgie.
“Well,
I’m not feeling very Chinese. But I am feeling destructive,” said Corrag with a
cackle, turning and leering at Mathew and Gurgie.
“Okay.
Springfest is our last fling at childish role-play. So you want to celebrate
that bourgeois trope of creative destruction. Be our guest,” said Mathew.
“I just
want to have fun,” said Corrag coldly. “Mathew.”
“Oh, God.
Fun. Right, I forgot how important that was to you,”
Corrag’s
brows wrinkled. Mathew was upsetting her.
“Doesn’t
mean we all feel the same way.” said Mathew
“You’ll
feel just like Miss Schilling wants you to feel, which is to say not feel
anything at all. Isn’t that the preconditioning? Too numb to think for
ourselves so we take on the augmented way and don’t have ourselves to answer to
any more. How convenient.”
Mathew
and Gurgie looked at each other, letting their confusion about Corrag’s
defiance of the Democravian ethic of obedience just show in the glance held
between them.
“Corrag.
Okay. We’ll go as Daisy and Tom and you can be Gatsby. But we’ll be Daisy and
Tom as Walser’s Chinese, as the assistants, and Gatsby will be the Inventor.
We’ll turn the two books around.”
“That’s
the Gurgie I love the best." Corrag threw her arms around Gurgie and spun
in the hall. A teacher, Mr. Aarnits,
glared at them through the open doorway of his classroom, and the emosensor
directly overhead glowed a warning green.
The crowd
outside the Taylor Jabones Civic Center seemed to undulate and throb as the
Lyons family van pulled up to the curb. Mostly dressed in velvets and vintage
chambrays and shades of purple and green, the colors of the Edmundstown
Wildcats, purple for the Upper deck and green for the Lower deck, the students
were an unrecognizable and restless mob in the customary spirit of the Spring
Fest. Corrag had mixed feelings about the night. She mainly wanted to dance and
forget about the issues confronting her at that moment.
“Good
night,” she said to nobody in particular as she stepped away from the open door
of the van.
“What
time do you expect to be picked up,” said the driverbot, speaking from a
juncture of the neckpiece and the swivel-cam head. It was Alana’s voice.
“One
thirty, please,” said Corrag.
“Not
acceptable. Twenty-two thirty at the latest. We will be at the loading station
then. Please be there as well. Mind your manners.”
Mind your
manners. That was just like Alana, to remind her of the proper way to behave at
a Spring Fest. As if she had not been a party-girl herself in her youth, one of
the late 2020s leading Unoits who had marched on Federation Councils demanding
an end to suppression of the Vallegos and increasing availability of
mezzopeptide and corrections to the disenfranchised dwellers of New Canaan, as
Democravia had then called itself. Corrag shuddered at the image in her mind of
her mother as a young woman just a little beyond her own age.
As she
made her way through the sea of bedecked and masked youth of Edmundstown,
Corrag kept looking out for the familiar sight of her two closest friends. She
had on a mobster fedora over her mass of long curls and a bone white Venetian
bauta mask, tight cut Wall Street pants with black neoprene Night Wolf
galoshes. A low cut, long, red vintage Hollywood silk coat and in her hands a
digital wand-clock with wings finished off the outfit. Somebody jumped into her
path with a black Zorro mask and a Spritz gun.
“Who are you?” it asked.
“No. Who
are you?” asked Corrag.
“Your
best friend.” There were hoots of laughter as the crowd of booters egged him
on. Corrag pushed by the group and they sprayed their Spritz guns into the air,
letting off the rainbow hues of the plasmic concoction. This caused an outbreak
of similar Spritz fire around the pedestrian square in front of the Civic
Center. Then the real fireworks began from the roof of the Center, and the
crowd went berserk with cheering and shouting. Corrag stopped in her frenetic
rush to the entrance steps and watched the waves of exploding color fanning out
over her and descending on the crowd from the black night sky. The explosions
and the crowd’s reactive shouting merged into a dull throbbing at the back of
her mind. Corrag had a flash image of the fireworks she’d seen in the desert at
her grandfather Al’s ranch in Sonora. The old man had never been a hand at the
consensus and thus remained outside the Democravian orbit until he died. But at
his funeral he had been made an honorary recipient of the Arts Benefit Lifetime
Award and his books uploaded into the official curriculum of the Augmentation
Board, the 14 members from around the world, mostly Republican Homeland and
Democravian, who controlled the IPP keys, the core of the Interneural Web, the
old INW along whose frequencies ran the entire collective virtual sphere.
Corrag
was about to look at her emosponder when she felt a tap on the shoulder and
turned around to see two characters from some macabre production of bourgeois
musical theater complete with wigs and vintage paper Chinese umbrellas.
“Where
did you get the umbrellas? I love them.”
“You
haven’t said anything about the matching boots.” said Gurgie. She pushed out
her foot and Mathew rolled his eyes.
“Lizard
skin. There was a Yaqui Indian in the family service who made them for my
brother and I,” said Mathew, his V mask with the smirk in the dim light of the
fireworks somehow perfectly fit him.
“Oh, you
guys are absolutely the best. Shall we go in? These Spritz guns are driving me
nuts.”
“Let’s do
it,” said Gurgie.
Inside,
the event organizers had pumped up the O to maximum levels and the band onstage
was putting out a synthesized auralscape that was also simultaneously being
relayed along a local intranet. Dancers were plugged into wireless earclips and
gyrating along to the pulsating power chord driven harmonics. Refreshments in
the form of fermented Maxergy drinks were being dispensed by generic bots laid
on by the Western council, and info-point stands along the perimeter of the
hall manned by Democravian council workers were representing the various work
sectors, including a recruiting officer of the Democravian Military Defense
Wing, a cubicle of mimics and aerobesthetes from the ArtSmile Corps, the VocAg
table dispensing samples of hormone replacement snacks from local Valley
growers, and of course the Daughters of Harmonious Memory, a social
organization that looked after orphans and whose Members had ancestors who had
fought in the New Canaanite wars, were flashing images of vintage industries
such as the Hollywood cinema, the primitive visualscapes that had once so
entranced the old-time ones.
Gurgie,
Mathew and Corrag stepped along, driven by the sweep of the crowd into the
middle of the dance floor where the lights from the emosensors were pulsating
the fastest. The band began playing “Heaven’s Gate”, a classic Spring Fest
staple. Dancers jumped together, craning their heads back and pumping both
fists in the air to the bass line rocking the hall. They came closer together
and then fell back like a human wave, the youth of the Valley celebrating the
apogee of the year. The rockers with the Spritz guns, along with the girls,
many of them costumed as simple sex workers or in jury-rigged uniforms with the
insignia and the classic meme of the HumInt Corps, Ridet Geritur, linked arms on the outside of the dancers and began
to circle. And then the choreographed symbolic imagery was lost, subsumed as
the dancers spilled out beyond the circumference of the steppers.
When the
song ended, Corrag looked around, slowly coming back to her senses. She
unsnapped her earclip and felt her way towards the outside of the dancing mob
with her hand. The next song increased the intensity, and the circle of Lower
Deck steppers renewed their boundary walk. Corrag waited for the right moment,
a lull in the energy pattern, and broke out through the human line. She walked
over to the refreshment valve and slipped on an O mask. Her head cleared and
she felt for an instant a sense of euphoria, somehow almost organic, as if she
were suddenly light years away, on a distant moon of her own, with no impinging
concerns about the future and what it held weighing her down. She wished she
could hold on to the moment, even better, share it with someone.
All the
Zolafs and Buzzyears and the Hillaries and Eunique Biebers, they were all kids
she would have known from Lightning Leagues or fencing classes or the myriad
theatrical productions she’d been in through the grade and middle schools.
Corrag found it fascinating that in this sea of familiar yet bizarre anonymity
she was free, free in a way that carried an exotic charge of exhilaration. She
had overheard parental stories about the dangers of Spring Fest, about kids not
being able to distinguish reality from fantasy and jumping from the upper
balconies awash in feelings of euphoria and invincibility. This was their first
taste of the augmented way, after all, of the freedom that came with giving up
their childish identities. But Corrag wondered about herself. Would she be
truly able to merge with the path and put the Democravian nation’s well being
before her own desires? Sometimes she thought she was too enamored of her own
thought processes, of the way her mind wanted to dig and scratch its way out of
the traps the adult world set. She was a feral creature, a throwback to a more
primitive way of life. It didn’t seem to be something she’d inherited from
Alana and Ricky, the two of them epitomes in her mind of the deep-rooted and
loyal communitarian ideals that ran in her family. Where did she get it, this
unhappiness, this habit of solitary thought she’d secretly cultivated in the
midst of privilege?
A boy in
a uniform, tall, with a purposeless gait, approached from out of no particular
direction, from the darkness. His mask was the same as Corrag’s, just a little
older, not as shiny in the pulsating flashes of neon, and he stopped in front
of her. Corrag looked carefully, noting the moment of recognition with some
metacognitive distance. Nevertheless, her heart skipped a few beats and her
mind raced. She didn’t expect this. It wasn’t fair of him to just show up.
Without turning, Ben Calder addressed her, staring out at the dance floor.
”I
thought I might see you, Corrag.”
“You
don’t mind rocking the boat. Did you miss me?”
“I don’t
know what you mean. I’m not supposed to be here.”
“You
never called. Why is that? Were you trying to forget? And now you’re here
because you couldn’t? You never even called. I mean you have an emosponder,
right? They couldn’t have taken that away. Why didn’t you ever call? I thought
you were possibly dead.”
“Sometimes
I wanted to be dead. But here I am. And you? I hear you’re entering your
application for fine-tuning.”
“Not yet.”
She had a
sudden need to see his face.
“Come
with me. We’ll check out the balconies,” she said.
“That’s
not allowed.”
“Just come.
We’ll figure it out.”
“Do you
know the way?”
“I’ll
find it.”
Corrag
led him past the stands to the far end of the hall. Gurgie and Mathew were
dancing and looked over briefly in her direction. She pretended not to notice.
She grabbed a Maxergy freshener shot and Ben followed suit and they walked
together out past the dancers and the presenters from the ArtSmile Corps
lounging and stretching in a circle by an unused energy panel exit. Corrag
waited until the music reached a moment of high intensity, and then reached
swiftly with her time wand and tripped the converter switch on the box like
she’d observed Mr. Breen do. This turned
the receptor back to the recently phased out former digital signal. The panel
bars began to throb in a slow rhythm in line with the less powerful digital
pulse. Then she looked at Ben and nodded and he slipped through the bars of the
panel. She waited a few seconds, held her breath, and with a sudden movement
jumped between the bars to the other side. She felt the hairs on her head and
neck rise with the kinetic energy, but not enough to set off any alarms.
The music
and hubbub from the center sounded distant. The walls of the hall were dusty
and the cement left unpainted with splotches of water staining down from the ceiling.
Ben was looking into the dim distance in some inert way. Corrag reached up and
touched his cheek and he recoiled.
“Can you
just take it off?”
“I ...
you ,” Ben spluttered. “You don’t have the right, Corrag.”
He
reached up and pulled off the mask. His face looked old, lined, tired. His eyes
were dark, and he looked away when she stared. She tried hard to remember the
way he had used to look, the memory she had of him the day he’d explained to
her that he could wait with his avatar at a crossroad and, his belief was so
strong that if he concentrated he could sense the virtual enemy before it
appeared. He had been so alive, so focused, so quick to see a way. Underneath
the mask of this face there was that other face, she was sure.
“Where
have you been, Ben?
“In the
south quadrant with the Corps.”
“What do
you want to do now?
“Corrag,
why do you think you can ask me that?”
“You’re
Ben. My friend.”
“No. I’m
Private Calder of the 175th Air Infantry Battalion, Mayagua Sector Six.”
“So, that
doesn’t mean anything to me. You’re Ben. Why did you come back?”
“I don’t
know.” He walked away, down the hall. Corrag followed. She wanted to touch him,
to turn him around. Where was he going? It scared her to see him this way. She
didn’t want to lose him. He was the last link to her childhood, to the hopes,
unformed and unspoken as they had been, of a happiness of her own. At the end
of the hall, where it emptied into a larger stairwell, he stopped and craned
his head around, looking up into the dark of the stairwell.
“What do
you see?”
“Nothing.
Come on.”
“No, Ben.
I mean about us.”
“About
us?” Ben took his foot off the step and turned towards her. He shifted his
weight uneasily and looked into her face intently.
“There is
no us. We don’t exist.”
“What
about trusting your instincts, Ben? What about finding the way?” Corrag’s voice
cracked with emotion. She heard the echo of it down the hall and had the
sensation of falling, as if she’d been dropped into some time warp.
“Shut up,
Corrag. That’s just stupid.”
“Stupid?
Ben, that’s what we lived for. Don’t you remember? You taught me everything I
knew. You were the best gamer ever before you dropped it. Left it all behind.
Said you’d be back and we’d figure it out. I believed you, Ben. We can find a way to be happy. In a new way.
Our own way. What about all that? Are you going to say you don’t remember?
Private Calder or whatever you are?”
Ben
turned around and walked back towards her.
“You’ve
never been on patrol in the Nicanor. You’ve never done three weeks on the hunt.
You don’t know what it’s like to be holding a Nicanor prisoner and looking into
eyes that just mirror back the hatred. There is no you and me. Just the next
day. And the next camp. And the next. You disappears. Me is just a hole to put
food into. The Nicanor kills you.”
“Don’t go
back. Stay with me. We’ll join the open border, volunteer to clean and cook.”
“No,
Corrag. Finish your fine-tuning. Be what you need to be.”
“And
smile all the while?”
“Yes.”
“Why,
Ben? Why?”
“Because
otherwise it hurts too much. We never knew pain, Corrag.”
Ben took
her hands in his.
“I know
it now.”
“There is
no you. There is no me. Listen to me.”
“No. I
won’t. I listened to you before and you lied,” Corrag pulled her hands away.
She wanted to run back to the dance floor. Forget she’d ever seen him or ever
wished to see him again.
“What’s a
lie?" asked Ben, his voice small, tinny, just a remnant of the fire and
humor that had once filled him.
“What
have they done to you Ben? It’s like you’ve been augmented, only worse.”
Ben
stared at her, unable to say a thing.
“What is
it?”
Instead
of answering, he turned and ran up the stairs, taking them two or three at a
time, his legs churning and arms flailing. He’d disappeared from sight in a
matter of seconds, just the sound of the boot strikes on the concrete echoing
more and more distantly as he ascended. Corrag followed. She climbed at a
slower pace, hands on the cold metal rail, listening for the sound of Ben up
ahead. But there was just silence. When she reached the top flight, there was a
metal door propped open.
Outside
the cold night air rushed by in a breeze from the north. The San Fermin
Mountains ranged in a dark silhouette. Ben was standing on the edge of the roof
overlooking the Convention Center plaza. The red lights of Federation weather
and surveillance drones filled the night sky. Corrag came up next to Ben and
looked out over the city.
“That’s
where we grew up, Ben. We existed in it. That was real. You and me we were
real, right?”
“Yes.”
"But
you think I should fine tune?”
“I do.”
"But
look out there. We can discover it for ourselves. We can be free.”
"There’s
no such thing. All the desires will be reprogrammed and rebooted to the higher
order.”
“Well,
then why try?”
“Because
otherwise we die.”
"But
you’re going to die, Ben."
"Not
if I kill first. In three months, with confirmed kills in the seven hundred or
higher range, I can be a candidate for Officer Training School.”
“Is that
what you want?”
"What
I want. It’s what is, Corrag. That’s all. There is no other way. Some day we can
live in the heavens on the planets of Betelgeuse or Andromeda. Our offspring
will rule the galaxies, fill the universe with their thought forms and
productions. Don’t you want that?”
“That’s
not alive with me. I want to live here and now. With you. Have children, not
offspring. Raise them to run and breathe and drink and dream in the mountains
and valleys of Earth. That’s why I knew you’d come back. I knew you would, just
not tonight. I expected you in the summer. That’s why I was holding out on
sending off the fine-tuning application. I wanted to be here when you got
back.”
“There’s
a break in the fighting now,” said Ben distantly. “The Naguani have retreated.
It’s strange. I expect they’re gathering strength for a major counteroffensive.
We’ve tried to burn them out. Dry up the water cycle with localized cloud
inhibition and carpet napalm bomb the basin. But they keep coming. They never
stop. No matter how many you kill there’s always more of them. Especially at
night. They can shape shift and come at you. The jaguars can get by the lasers.
In your sleep. That’s the worst sound.
“What
is?”
“The guys
in their bunks being mauled, Corrag. All the guys in the Corp, we just want to
survive long enough to get the kill range target and get out. It’s as if the war
is bigger than we are.”
“What
about the girls?”
“Well,
it’s Democravia, right? The girls in the Corps can work their way up to
augmentation with a kill rate, too. ”
“That’s
sick.”
“Yes, it
is kind of.”
“Kind of,
Ben?”
She
couldn't see his face in the dark, but wanted to. At that instant she sensed he
needed her. The distance between them was threatening to blow up and obliterate
whatever they had left between them, any memory of a friendship, any hope
Corrag had for the future. So she took his hand and pulled him away from the
edge of the roof.
"Let’s
go. I know where we can go.”
“Where,
Corrag?”
“Anywhere,
I don’t really know where. It doesn’t matter where.”
“Then,
let’s go.”
They went
down and out through the dance hall with their masks on again. Corrag tapped
the emosponder on her left wrist and picked up Gurgie’s avatar on the display.
“I’m
going out.”
“Where?”
“Don’t
know. I’m with Ben.”
“Please
be careful, Corrag. Think about your steps before you take any. Be sure.”
“If I did
that. I’d never get anywhere, Gurgie. I’ll be back soon. Don’t worry.”
Corrag
tapped three times on the emosponder, putting it to sleep. Together, she and
Ben walked briskly, wordlessly, until they found a zipbike out on the street
about five blocks from the Civic Center. After punching in the emergency code
for civilian first responders on the meter, Ben mounted it and motioned for her
to jump on the back. Corrag smiled. Now they were getting somewhere.
“How long
do we have?
“Three
hours showing.”
“That
should get us to Ysidro.”
“Do you
remember how to get there?”
“I think
so. Go out north on the old causeway.”
Ben
twisted the throttle and the zipbike responded instantly, silently accelerating
to eighty miles an hour on the quiet streets. Ben braked on the corners and
leaned as if he’d just gotten off the speed circuit training ground. Under the
Spring Fest curfew, he didn’t have to worry about other traffic, and by keeping
his headlights off, he avoided alerting any police radars of their highly
illicit escapade.
Ysidro
had been Ricky and Alana's favorite camping ground in her childhood. They’d
often pitched a tent in the shadow of the canyon land. She felt herself feeling
a way back towards those days, the sense of security, satisfaction and
rightness of those summers, drinking in the sun on the slippery stones of the
riverbed. In her mind the golden glow of the memory was a currency worth
guarding. In those years, the wars of the New Canaanite alliance against the
secessionist states had still been fresh in Ricky and Alana’s memory, and Ricky
had always kept a firearm loaded inside the tent in case of surviving
secessionist marauders, but they never saw any. Alana had always played up the
possibility to keep Corrag close by, warning her to not go too far along the
riverbed by herself. But one of them had always been there with their old
sheepdog Haj, hovering, as she had built her fantasy castles with river stones
worn soft in the wettish mud still left in early June from the melted snowpack,
an afterglow of the past. She imagined that somehow Ben sensed her giving
directions by shifting her weight on the back of the zipbike, and they did end
up somewhere very close to Ysidro, on an old logging road. Ben pulled up on the
shoulder and parked. They got off and removed their helmets. Around the corner
of the mountain there was just a hint of the dawn to come. In a few hours the
alarms would be going off and the search drones would be activated. She
couldn’t see his face very clearly.
“What are
you thinking?” Corrag asked.
“I’m
thinking you’re brave to be out here with someone you hardly know. What would
your father and mother think?”
“They
already think I’m a lost cause. It doesn’t matter to me. Besides, what do you
mean hardly know?”
“Do you
think you know me, Corrag?”
“Of
course. You haven’t changed for me. I know you’ve been through hell, Ben. Don’t
get me wrong.”
“Then
help me out here. Shine your light for me.”
Corrag
knelt beside him with her open emosponder glowing. Ben used his utility tool to
unclip the casing on the zipbike’s fuse and carefully pull two hair-thin
filaments that powered the geopositioning transponder. Then he turned the bike
on again and rolled it over to a stand of aspen and behind some rocks where it
couldn’t be seen from the road.
They
hiked up a trail that paralleled the creek in the canyon below and then crossed
an old footbridge. The sign for the trailhead was lying on the ground, rusted
and overgrown with weeds. Ben said he knew an old hunting cabin that had been
used by his uncles before the war. Somewhat hesitantly at first, Corrag agreed
on it as a destination. She really wanted to stay on the bridge and watch the
water rushing underneath their feet, the way it sparkled and crystallized into
the colors of the rainbow. The sun had come out and warmed up the trail. Flies
buzzed around the body of a dead bird. They marched ahead, Ben pushing the
pace, perhaps concerned about getting far enough up the trail to evade the
authorities.
“Gurgie
will tell them I’m with you. Mom and Dad won’t mind,” she said, thinking out
loud.
“Colonel
Bohjalian won’t be so easy-going. I’m supposed to be back on base as of twenty
three hundred.”
“What
will they do?”
“I’ll be
assigned to care-taker duty for a month once we deploy back to the Basin.”
“Is that
the worst they can do?”
“The
worst is the CDC labor camp in the Ozarks for deserters. I don’t think they’ll
send me there for going AWOL with my girlfriend.”
Corrag
liked the sound of being called Ben’s girlfriend. She thought of her father’s
exhortations against girls who relied on their boyfriends for their own sense
of well being and acceptance. He wanted her to be more independent and
self-reliant, but it was another area where she differed with his thoughts for
her. Corrag liked the idea of being important in a boy’s life, of being
necessary to someone and didn’t think it made her any less of a human being to
enjoy or desire it. Alana didn’t like Ben for other reasons. She thought he was
too smart to be completely trustworthy. People like Ben, she would say, often
needed re-education components before being assigned to an augmentation track.
This escapade would be further proof of the rightness of her judgment. But
Corrag didn’t want them, her parents, the school, the Council, to blame Ben for
leading her astray. She wanted to be the author of her own demise, if there was
going to be such a thing. Let it be by her own hand at least. But for Ben, let
it be, as he said, a mild reprimand, whatever caretaker duty was. It didn’t
sound so harsh. She didn’t want him suffering on her behalf.
After
about a mile, the trail took a turn up a steep, rocky face. There was a cabin
just at the top of a ridge, sheltered from the prevailing wind by the mountain
behind it. The siding was faded, and gaps showed between the boards of the roof
and the scraps of old tarpaper that had once protected the wood from the
elements. When they looked back, Corrag and Ben could see the desert with its
fingers of green. There was Edmundstown on the eastern edge and Mono Lake far
in the distance - just a dot of iridescence in the foothills. And far off
behind those hills was the ocean. The momentary sense of peace was broken by
the barks of a dog and the sound of a door clapping shut. They turned round. An
old man, faded into the dirt, had appeared beside the shack. He neither waved
nor moved. Nor did his attitude suggest fear. The dog barked again and the old
man leaned down and scratched its ears.
“Hi
there,” shouted Ben, but the old man made no sign of hearing.
“Let me
handle this,” said Corrag, putting her hand on Ben’s arm. “We don’t want to
scare him.” She was thinking of Ben in his uniform, and there was something
frail and covert about the old man’s quietness. She walked over and the dog
growled as she approached.
“Nice
dog,” she said as she got close to the old man.
He looked
up and squinted. The dog was a poodle mix, white, with blue husky eyes, an old
mutt. The old man straightened. The top of his head was at a height with her
shoulders, and his hair, greasy and long, hid his face. He wiped his hair away
with one hand and looked at her with grey, lidded eyes.
“I’ve
been waiting a long time for you,” he said.
“Who are
you?” she asked with exaggerated wonderment, placating his delusions.
“Abel.
Abel Marin. You and your friend are just fine. What are your names?”
“Corrag
and Ben. What’s your dog’s name?”
“Sandy.”
“Perfect.
Hi Sandy.” She petted the dog and the old man began to cry. She noticed he
wiped his tears away and let the hair fall in front of his eyes again. Ben came
over.
"Ben,
this is Abel and Sandy. Why are you crying Abel? There’s no need for that,”
said Corrag, horrified that he might think they meant to harm him.
“Crying
is good,” said Abel. “This is how a man keeps a strong heart. I’ve been waiting
a long time. I thought the world was done with me. And now you are here at
last.”
Ben
looked at her. She gave him a stern look back and shook her head.
“You’ve
come back at last,” continued Abel. “Let me give you something.”
“No, you
don’t have to give us anything,” said Corrag.
“Water
would be nice,” said Ben.
Sandy
began to bark as the old man moved back to the shack.
“Come
in,” he said, holding the door open. The rusty springs squeaked as it shut
behind them.
“This
used to be my uncles’. My dad talked to me about the hunting cabin on Mt. Gabriel.”
said Ben. “He and his two older brothers that used to come up here hunting.”
“The old
boys knew how to live. They’ve died out now. Nothing left. We need to mourn for
the earth and bring back the old ways again.”
It was dark once the door closed. There
were no windows. Their eyes adjusted and Abel motioned for them to sit. He
brought them two jars of water he poured from a metal bucket. The jars were old
glass mason jars. They sat in the folding chairs by the sink. Their eyes
adjusted to the lack of light, just cracks in the siding allowing some light
inside, enough to see. There was a rough plank workbench against the wall piled
high with animal skins and bones and dried plants, with tiny flowers and
corrugated strange leaves in bunches. Corrag drank the water. She wondered who
Abel thought they were. He was a crazy old survivor, one of the holdouts from
the war of secession that the council had never bothered to track down because
he had never appeared on anybody’s lists. The fact that he could still be up
here on his own was itself an indictment of their claims of control.
“This water is strange. It has a taste
of something,” said Ben.
“Spring-fed mountain water. I’ll show
you where I get it,” said Abel. “When I first come up here there was no water.
I had to find it. I was just a little tyke. But I hardly remember that. Anyway
it’s not important. You need to know, but not about me. I’m just the messenger.
It’s the earth that speaks.”
Ben
looked at her in the semi-darkness. He thought Abel was a crazy old coot. But
Corrag wanted to keep listening to him. There was something soothing and calm
about the shack and his voice. Sandy poked her hand with his muzzle and she
petted him.
“What
does it say, Abel?” she asked absentmindedly
“Hmm? I
don’t know. Listen you two is hungry. I forgot I need to feed you. Let me give
you some food.”
He
disappeared into the darkness between the workbench and the far wall. Ben and
Corrag looked at each other, shifting the folding chairs around to see each
other easier. Ben smiled, as if all of this was part of some plan he had
foreseen and devised. Corrag had questions about Abel she needed answered.
Wouldn’t he need inoculations against dengue and the killer giardia that had
wiped out the population of the mountain states? How had he avoided the
orbiting aerial surveillance satellites and their micro-infrared cameras that
spotted the heat signals of life processes from space? Why was he allowed to
survive here on his own? She wanted to whisper to Ben, but she stilled her curiosity.
It was all right to not know all the answers. Clarity was over-rated.
When he
returned, he brought with him a bowl with dried roots. He peeled them and then
scraped with the knife into a mound of flakes and then produced part of a leg
bone of some animal from which he cut sinews of dried meat and placed it all
back in the bowl at their feet on the ground. Ben got out of his chair and sat
cross-legged on the ground. Corrag followed suit. The meat was tough and hard
to chew, but the vegetable matter with some moisture left in it gave it a
palatable taste. They were both hungrier than they realized after the hike. It
was about mid-morning but almost pitch black except for the light coming in the
open door.
“My Mama
and Papa came up here from Sonora with a bunch of folks. They were mostly Pima
but they had some Apache. They were not people who farmed or went looking for
that kind of work. They were looking for the mountains because they knew the
end was coming and the Spanish missions had told them to be on the lookout for
signs of the big war. They refused to fight for General Walker when he tried to
put down the carpinteros who wanted their freedom so a lot of them were put in
jail and then the rest took off in a big convoy for the north because that way
was cooler weather and in those days there was tremendous heat, you two
probably are too young to remember. For a while we were in Arizona. That’s
where I learned my English in a little school there that was broken up by
secessionists who wanted to kill my mother because she was the leader of this
group of women, all kinds, whites, blacks, and teaching them the ways of the
medicinals. You’re eating some there, that’s lechuguilla root which is good for
your organs. The secessionists didn’t want us helping others to live free and
together in nature. They wanted it all under their control in the name of the
markets. You remember that part. The markets were going to be the answer to
everything. Just put us all on the shelves of the market, you know. So anyway
we came up here I was about five I guess by then and the deer were the first to
notice and this was after the big battles in the Mississippi where they loosed
the crazy winds and tornadoes that knocked us back and that got out of control
and then there was sickness on the land for many years, but the deer helped us
survive long enough to get our bearings and we lived up here pretty much on our
own and once in awhile we went down to the highway and just stayed there
watching the traffic, waiting for our cousins on a certain date, the
anniversary of the lady of the rosary which is in October I believe. I’ve
almost lost track of time. What year are we in? It doesn’t matter. Time is
ending anyway. The planets will sink back into the fire of the suns and we’ll soon
see if there is more than one Universe. I believe there is because the deer
tend to believe that this is not all there is. That’s why they don’t mind dying
and giving up their hearts for us. That is the sign, you see. That is the final
sign of the grandmothers that they talked about and my mama and papa talked
about and even you talked about the first time you came up here. Do you
remember? You always said you would come back and now you have.”
While he
talked Ben and Corrag ate. Soon it felt like they'd always been there and it
was the most natural thing in the world to listen to Abel's voice telling his
stories that opened up into a world they had never known, an alternative world,
illicit in its meanings and implications, just like the escape they had
embarked on together. Ben's initial anxiety went away and Corrag wondered
whether there was something in the food, the venison and lechuguilla root that
was altering their perceptions. Later, when the sun had risen halfway up the
sky judging from the light coming in the door, she followed Sandy outside and
saw Abel working in the ditch that ran along the back of the shack between it
and the trail that she could see continuing up to the face of the mountain. She
wandered over and saw Abel face down in a hollow through which she could see
water running. He was mumbling words in a language she thought might be the
Pima he had mentioned. Then a black bird flew overhead, she thought it was a
crow, and Sandy barked at it. Abel got to his knees and turned to see her
standing behind him.
"Hi
there, Corrag. I was just thanking the water for bringing you here. You and
Ben. After all these years you've returned. And the water alway promised. So
I’m giving her thanks. You know you can bring the water wherever you go if you
remember how. I'll show you later again. I'll show you and Ben."
"I've
never been here before as far as I know," said Corrag.
"Well,
there's stuff you're not aware of. Stuff about you you don't know because
you've buried it. But that's okay. It's all part of the plan, Corrag."
"Plan?
We don't believe in that. There's a process of space and time unfolding and we
humans need to stay ahead of it. We can do that with our scientists who see and
measure and analyze. Before the planet dies. What kind of God lets his planet
die?"
"The
planet dies? The planet's just getting started, Corrag. I'll show you. There's
no need to look for others."
"Are
you saying our scientists are wrong?"
"Not
wrong. Sometimes they're looking at the world through their lenses and what
have you and a little ant will come up from behind and bite them on the ass.
That's God playing with them because he has a sense of humor. He thinks they're
funny. That's all. Not wrong. It's good what they do. It's good to use what He
gave us, and that's our eyes. Our eyes and ears and put it all together like,
so it makes sense. But see what I mean? There's a lot of stuff we know that the
scientists haven't figured out. Which is more important. Listen to the Universe
with an open heart and know that anybody can do that but the scientists don't
listen to the old time ones. They make war on us instead which is a big
mistake. You know what I’m saying, Corrag.
"I
never knew my grandparents."
"Listen
to the grandparents. And the scientists, Corrag. They’re both right."
Abel
laughed and jumped up from the ditch so that he appeared beside her. His age
was impossible to gauge. He looked ancient sometimes, with his wrinkled brown
skin and lidded eyes. But other times he seemed barely in his twenties with his
strong sure movements and rapidly shifting facial expressions. Corrag thought
he was like water himself, radiant, sparkling, and larger then he appeared, as
if he contained within himself reserves of strength and wisdom.
They
walked with Abel and Sandy up the mountain along a ravine. Ben and Corrag
trailed behind, and Ben stopped to tie his shoes and look out over the valley
from the ledges. They kept going higher up, scrambling over the boulders,
barely keeping Abel and Sandy in sight up ahead. Corrag was trying to explain
how she felt about Abel, as if she had known him for a long time. She had never
met anybody so strange, and yet she had also never felt as comfortable with
somebody in the first moments after meeting. It was as if he had some strange
knowledge about her that was the missing piece of a puzzle she had been trying
to reconstruct without knowing it all her life. The school, her parents, had
all contributed valuable pieces, but had also missed the target for her.
Ben
thought she should be more wary of her enthusiasm.
"Look,
there's no way he could direct the water the way you think, with the powers of
his mind," said Ben making vibrating gestures with his hands like some old
vaudeville wizard from the movies.
Corrag
couldn't think of an immediate answer. She was hurt that Ben couldn't see what
she saw in Abel and could so easily dismiss him like some unimportant aspect of
the landscape. He was focused on seeking advantage in a way that bothered her.
As if the default setting in him was the gamer that was always looking ahead to
the next junction, always seeing any opportunity to gain strength or tools for
the next confrontation with the inevitably lurking enemies. But that wasn't the
way the world worked at a root level. Not that she knew, of course. Maybe he
was right and Abel was crazy, delusional, and just lucky to have found a little
pocket out of the sight of the Democravian Federation and its surveillance
machinery.
The trail
was invisible except for a slight wear in the line of scrub. They were coming
down the backside into a valley of young pines growing out of scrub grass. Abel
detoured around the valley and kept along the ridges, hopping from rock to rock
like a mountain goat. It was tough to keep up and even Ben was getting winded.
At the end of the valley it became clear why he had detoured. There was a
man-made concrete wall, an old dam from one ridge to the next. The valley had
once been a lake.
"You
know what this was?" asked Ben.
"What?"
"Lake
San Pedro."
"Yeah.
It's pretty dry now."
"That's
why they built the desalination plant before we were born. I remember my Dad
talking about it. He said it gave the Federation more control over the water
supply then the old system which was rigged for the big farmers and fat
cats."
Abel waited
on a flat rock with Sandy. Corrag and Ben took their time climbing down to him.
"
...wanted to show you the old world that's disappearing. You bringing the new
way. The water flows strong. That's why you need to listen to your tears. It's
the water calling from inside. Don't bottle it. Here look at this."
The flat
rock was actually the top of the dam wall. Abel walked them out along it and
they could look over and see to the north beyond through the mountains what had
once been the old Inland Empire, the agricultural heartland of the United
States until the years of drought and secession wars had put an end to the
decrepit model of so-called representative government of the people by the
corporate interests.
"This
was lake San Pedro," said Ben.
"That's
what your people called it. It never had a name," said Abel.
Out in
the middle, they stopped and sat on the edge. Abel handed out some food from a
satchel bag over his shoulder. It was a dried, almost unpalatable sort of plant
matter. He even gave some to Sandy, who wolfed it down whole.
"I
know it’s hard. Just eat it. You won't be hungry and it will help you see what
is really here." Abel didn't say another word. Hours passed and the sun
went behind the western mountain. Corrag fell asleep. In the dim light of the
late afternoon, Ben asked Corrag to come with him. He had climbed down the face
of the dam and come back up. She got to her feet and followed. It wasn't hard
to get down the wall, since there were built in handholds and steps. Then at
the bottom she could see what he had seen, the crack and the water flowing
through, not a torrent, just a trickle.
"He's
right. The water is winning," said Ben.
"Do
you think it's safe?"
"The
dam? It won't go immediately. But eventually it will crumble."
"What
now? What about us?"
"What
do you mean?"
"Well,
we have a choice. He’s given us a clear choice. Follow the dam or the water.
Which is it?"
"Corrag,
I don't know what it is Abel gave us to eat, but I don't really see we have a
choice. We can't stay here. We have to go back up and get home and carry
on."
"Right
now, Ben. What's your choice?"
"You're
scaring me, Corrag. Don't talk like that."
She
wanted him to hug her and kiss her, to be carried away with their feelings for
each other. That would have been the right choice. Instead she could see he was
as frightened and confused as she was when faced with the wall of the world and
its seemingly inescapable logic. They sat together and waited for the night.
Ben leaned over and put his arm around her and hugged her closer. The dam wall
grew dim and the black bird swooped down from it overhead.
"Is
that the crow?" asked Corrag.
Ben
didn't answer. He was asleep.
Instead
of the concrete wall, there was a waterfall, with an iridescent cascade of
water broken up in a moonlit glow. Deer stood along the banks of the river and
tall pines had grown up in the surrounding fields. She heard Abel call for
Sandy. She heard her father call her name. Where were they?
"Ben.
What time is it?"
Ben woke
up and looked at his emosponder.
"Oh
my God. It's late. Let's go, Corrag." He stood and pulled her to her feet.
Where were they? Disoriented, she followed his voice as he called from above.
Then she could see the wall of the dam as her eyes adjusted to the darkness.
Where had the waterfall gone? It had been such a vivid presence. But now she
felt a gnawing in her gut and her legs shaking as she climbed. When she reached
the top of the wall she collapsed in a heap. Sandy barked and dug at her hair
with his paw.
"I'm
okay, Sandy. I'm okay."
Abel held
her by the chin and dribbled in water from an old tin canteen. It tasted sweet.
Her eyes, ears, even her sense of taste were playing tricks on her. Then there
was a loud noise and overhead lights blinded her. Sandy barked and Abel yelled.
"Run,
Sandy. Go boy."
The
lights were followed by cable dropping out of the hatches of the Federation
Home Air UC7 reconnaissance choppers and rappelling soldiers descending to the
ground in quick succession. Corrag screamed.
It took
about a minute. They didn't say a word. They handcuffed and blindfolded the two
of them and bundled them towards a chopper whose four blades were still
whirling. Corrag cried out Ben's name. He didn't answer.
"Keep
quiet," said a soldier with his hand on her shoulder, dirt and gravel
kicked up from the downdraft of the whirling blades. Unseen hands pulled her
onboard. Then they picked up and flew off into black space. Corrag cried for
what she'd seen and for the childhood sense of possibility she'd left behind in
that mountain valley. She let the tears flow as Abel had said. She never had
the chance to talk to Ben and for years wondered if he had seen the same things
she had, the waterfall and the deer and the moonlit wonders of a reborn world.
Anthony Caplan is an independent writer, teacher and homesteader in
northern New England. He has worked at various times as a shrimp fisherman,
environmental activist, journalist, taxi-driver, builder, window-washer, and telemarketer,
(the last for only a month, but one week he did win a four tape set of the
greatest hits of George Jones for selling the most copies of Time-Life’s The
Loggers.) Currently, Caplan is working on restoring a 150 year old farmstead
where he and his family tend sheep and chickens, grow most of their own
vegetables, and have started a small apple orchard from scratch.
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